if I only had 2 months to live..

youth went really well tonight.   I had more thoughts  than we had time to talk about..  so I'm gonna elaborate now...

the topic was about how time just flies..  the brevity of life.

If I only had 2 months to live what would i do?

I think I would pray a lot more for my wife.  It's crazy how much your priorities change when you're married.  I would probably write down and video hours of things that I want her to know..  and things that I wish I had taken the time to say before to her and to the the people I love.   It would be exhausting,  but I would have to get all of my thoughts out of my head before I would be able to enjoy the rest of my time on earth.   I have so much to be thankful for,  and have so many thank you's to say- and I would truly want to take the time to say it all.

Something I always wished I had of my father was a video of him talking.   To see his expressions,  hear his voice,  to see how he held himself..  to see if I can see any kind of him in me.   I'd like to know what dreams he had for himself and what dreams he had for me.

I wouldn't want anything left unsaid.  I would want to share one last time my testimony of God's provision and mercy in my life.

Then after that I would want to spend the remaining weeks of my life as ordinary as possible.   Maybe go to work and give my craft my very best.   Wash off all the hard day's work and scrub my finger nails in the shower.   I'd have dinner with my wife and maybe fall asleep on the couch together.   That would be wonderful.   Fold laundry together while we talked about our day.  Go to church and hold hands just like any other Sunday.  Kiss her and love on her. 

I am so incredibly blessed. 

After that just nothing else would matter.   No need for a bucket list for me.  God has given me a home filled with love,  what more could I ever ask for?